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released May 13, 2014

All recordings by Sean Schuyler © 2014

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Track Name: One Of The Number Ones
ONE OF THE NUMBER ONES

Darlin' you're
One of the number one girls
In my life
Can't you feel it?
'Cause I feel it
Yeah

You've always been
One of the special ones
You've always been
One of my favorites
And if I had to choose one to lose
From my number one list
I'd keep you hangin' on

You're one of the number ones

Darlin' you're
One of the number one girls
In my life
Can't you feel it?
'Cause I feel it
Yeah

I've always been happy with all of you
And all of you seem to be happy too
But you are just
One of the number one girls
In my life
I'll keep you hangin' on

You're one of the number ones

Darlin' you're
One of the number one girls
In my life
Can't you feel it?
'Cause I feel it
Yeah

You'll always be
One of the number ones
You're welcome to stay if another comes
I've always been capable of
Doing two things at-

You're one of the number ones

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Someone Else
SOMEONE ELSE

I tried to avoid it
I tried to stand clear
I couldn't forget her
In a million years

'Cause I fell in love with a girl
That didn't love me
Now I am trying to be
Exactly who she wants me to be

And I know that I should be myself
But I want to be someone else
'Cause I want her to fall in love with me

I'm thinking about her
I'm wondering why
She still won't acknowledge
The thorn in my side

'Cause I fell in love with a girl
That didn't love me
Now I am trying to be
Exactly who she wants me to be

And I know that I should be myself
But I want to be someone else
'Cause I want her to fall in love with me

I love her madly
Can't she see?
I need her badly

I want to be someone
She thinks about constantly
To be in her arms
There's no place that I'd rather be

I want to be someone else
Someone she wants to see
See constantly
'Cause I want her to fall in love with me

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Get The Girl
GET THE GIRL

I've been talking to a lot of people
And they say you're hard to get
My infatuation has been growing
Since the moment that we met

And every single synapse
Is screaming:

Get the girl
You'll never find another
One like her in the world

I've been searching for the love of women
Since the moment I could see
Now I found what I've been wanting always
Got to get that girl for me

I'll never find another
One like you in the world
And every single synapse
Is screaming:

Get the girl

I've been trying very hard to get you
And I told you how I feel
If you don't believe me let me show you
So you'll always know it's real

I'll never find another
One like you in the world
And every single synapse
Is screaming:

Get the girl
You'll never find another
One like her in the world

And every single synapse
Is screaming:

Get the girl

Let's find a place to be alone
I'll show you love you've never known
I'll make you sure my love is true
And I won't rest 'til I get you

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Long Forgotten
LONG FORGOTTEN

Lately I've been feeling lonely
Lately I've been staying home
Lately I've been feeling worthless
Lately I've been all alone

Lately I can't escape the feeling
That I haven't done a thing
No one will remember me
Not even you
I'm long forgotten in your memories

Lately life is somewhat empty
Lately joy has disappeared
Lately no one cares about me
Lately hope has changed to fear

Lately I can't escape the feeling
That I haven't done a thing
No one will remember me
Not even you
I'm long forgotten in your memories

Lately I can't escape the feeling
That I haven't done one thing
No one will remember me
Not even you
I'm long forgotten in your memories

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Fill It Up
FILL IT UP

There's always been
A place in my heart for you
So fill it up
I've been waiting for that a long time
You've wandered the Earth
Lived life for what it's worth
And you're heading into your sexual prime

It's true what you always knew
I'm still in love with you
And I can't wait until you love me too

Remember when I told you the first time
My love is real
You told me I don't even know you
I wanted to change
But you acted so estranged and you left
I didn't know where you went to

But you have come back to me
I'll have to wait and see
If you were changed by the geography

I wanna hold you tight in my arms
'Cause I've never felt so alone
It feels so good to have you back now
'Cause it hurt ever since you left home
I still don't know you any better
But I'm desperate to change that for good
There's still a place for you in my heart
So fill it up if you could

I ask you if you've made a decision
But you still don't know
Why don't you believe what I tell you?
Our love could be real
If you feel the way I feel
If you don't, I really won't know what to do

It's true what you always knew
I'm still in love with you
And I can't wait until you love me too

There's still a place for you in my heart
So fill it up with your love

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: The Heart I Used To Have
THE HEART I USED TO HAVE

There's a black pit of sorrow
Where my heart used to be
But otherwise I'm doing okay
I've been through the worst
This pain is not the first
But the hurt will last for infinite days

I'm a far cry from happy
Since depression set in
Can't remember when it started or how
It's a cycle of pain
And my life is pure disdain
But it won't get the best of me now

I should have learned from my mistakes
But I didn't
And my heart became a black pit of sorrow
I can't pretend it doesn't hurt
'Cause it's showing
But I know it can't be worse than tomorrow

There's a black pit of sorrow
Where my heart used to be
I've been dead inside since you went away
But don't you feel bad
The heart I used to have
Had been dying before we met that day

That special day I saw your face
For the first time
Now you're gone
But I won't let that destroy me
Who says you need a heart to live?
Mine was dying
Now it's dead
I'm as alive as I can be

The heart I used to have had been dying
I won't give you the pleasure of thinking
That you're the only reason
That my heart didn't last

You're one of many girls who have hurt me
I always knew one day you'd desert me
I'm dead inside
But otherwise I'm having a blast

There's a fast car that I drive
When I'm feeling depressed
Which pretty much means every day
I drive recklessly
With fearless apathy
I've been dead inside since you went away

That doesn't mean that you're the cause
You're a factor
In a complicated plot to destroy me
I lost the heart I used to have
It was dying when I met you
Now it's dead like it should be

The heart I used to have

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Back In Love With You
BACK IN LOVE WITH YOU

I didn't believe you
When you told me that you loved me
You should have warned me
That you weren't being sarcastic
Sometimes it's hard to figure out
Just what you're thinking
And you never seem to make
Decisions oh so drastic

But that doesn't matter anymore
I've finished coming 'round your door
I've now got better things to do
Than to fall back in love with you

I don't want to fall back in love with you
No, I don't want to fall back in love with you
I've been through this before
It's not amusing anymore
And I think that
Everything I ever felt for you
Is gone

When I first met you
No one ever thought to tell me
That your sense of humor
Wasn't easy to decipher
No one ever told me
That you were the queen of cruelty
Or that our conversations
Would be an adventure

But that doesn't matter anymore
I've finished coming 'round your door
I've now got better things to do
Than to fall back in love with you

I don't want to fall back in love with you
No, I don't want to fall back in love with you
I've been through this before
It's not amusing anymore
And I think that
Everything I ever felt for you
Is gone

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Murder Me
MURDER ME

You're the girl of my dreams
And the nightmares in between
And there seems to be
A split in your person
There's a face that you hide
Capable of homicide
And I think your situation'll worsen

You are sweet usually
About as nice as you could be
But sometimes you wanna be a deserter
If you leave me for good
Do me something if you could
'Cause I think that
I would rather be murdered

Murder me!
If I can't see you
Then I'd rather not to see
Murder me!
I can't be with you
So I'd rather not to be
Murder me!
I won't be happy
Without you, it's misery
Murder me!
If you won't let me love you
Got to murder me

You're insane when you're mad
So I think that you have had
Many fantasies involving me perish
So have I about you
But I hope they don't come true
'Cause my fantasies are truly nightmarish

Murder me!
If I can't sleep a goodnight's sleep
I can't be free
Murder me!
If you won't share my sleep
I'd rather not to be
Murder me!
If there's a reason
To go on living, I can't see
Murder me!
I'd die a happy man
To have you murder me

You gotta murder me murder me
Murder me murder me murder me (x4)

I feel so happy
When you're spending time with me
Even if you are committing a crime
In the eyes of the law
But what the law can't see
When you're murdering me
You're spending time with me
I want my final sight to be your face tonight
I want to taste your kiss of death
It's happiness
'Cause knowledge unlike ignorance is bliss

I know everything about you
'Cause you poured out your heart
When you had a heart to pour out to me
But your heart was attacked
And now your sweet side won't come back
The solution is so easy to see

Murder me!
Don't want to live my life
Consumed with jealousy
Murder me!
Can't live without you
So I'd rather not to be
Murder me!
I won't be happy without love
It's misery
Murder me!
If you won't let me love you
Got to murder me

I feel so happy
When you're spending time with me
Even if you are committing a crime
In the eyes of the law
But what the law can't see
When you're murdering me
You're spending time with me
I want my final sight to be your face tonight
I want to taste your kiss of death
It's happiness
'Cause knowledge unlike ignorance is bliss

You gotta murder me murder me
Murder me murder me murder me (x4)

Em redrum! Em redrum!

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Love Is Dead
LOVE IS DEAD

Seems to me
Love is dead
As far as I can see
But that's not very far

Late at night
The moon reflects
A distant light
I've seen a brighter star
But it's farther from the sun
Run away with everyone
You better run
You better leave

Seems to me
Love is dead
As far as I can see
But that's not very far

Life is long
It seems much longer
Now you're gone
You know I have to live
And my heart's about to give
'Cause I gave you all I had
Now I'm as sad as sad can be

Seems to me
Love is dead
As far as I can see
But that's not very far

Seems to you
Love is living
Love is true
Your love is not for me
And you're much too far to see
'Cause I don't know where you are
The brightest star
You're much too far

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: So Long Goodbye
SO LONG GOODBYE

If you were here with me tonight
I wouldn't feel the need to fight
I'm punching walls
I'm screaming down the halls

I get so jealous when you're gone
I lay awake alone 'til dawn
When you come back
My broken hands are black and blue
They should be holding you

My hands will heal
If you let me feel
I just want to hold you tight
I can keep you safe
If you stay away
From the strangers in the night

If you were here with me in bed
I'd want to kiss you from your head
Down to your toes
And take off all your clothes

I know you love me but you leave
Do you expect me to believe
That you're alone?
I never got a phone call from you
Where could you have been?

You're out again
But I found a pen
So I'm writing you a note
If you cheat on me
All you'll gonna see
Is the message that I wrote:

So long goodbye

If you were here with me right now
I wouldn't want to kick you out
I'd let you stay
I threw that note away

The message that I wrote was wrong
I couldn't live without you
Longer than a day
And if you went away
I wouldn't have the strength to cry

I'd want to die
If you said goodbye
So I threw away the note
In the garbage bag
Is a crumpled rag
It's the message that I wrote:

So long goodbye

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: Breaking Up
BREAKING UP

So far the solution to our troubles
Is as unclear as the cause
Once we were as happy as we could be
But I'm not sure when it was

Lately we've been dealing with our feelings
But we can't find what we had
So much is unraveling so quickly
It's enough to drive us mad

Nothing looks the same
I've forgotten your name
But I still know your eyes

Do you still know me?
You were happy to be
Beneath the blue skies
In my arms

I thought we were gonna stick together
But it looks like that's a lie
No one is at fault except the both of us
It won't work but we tried

Nothing looks the same
I've forgotten your name
But I still know your eyes

Will you think of me?
When you're sitting alone
Beneath the blue skies
'Neath the blue skies
'Neath the blue skies

Breaking up
Breaking up
Breaking up

Go back to the single life
And maybe we will both find someone else
But maybe we were meant to be together
Until Death sends me to Hell
And you to Heaven

Breaking up
Breaking up
Breaking up

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]
Track Name: The One That Got Away
THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

It's been 12 months since we split
I've tried so hard to forget
It isn't easy
Thought we both could use a break
You thought so too but mine won't take
In fact I'm sorry
I shouldn't trust my instincts
Anymore

I was fine for several days
But after weeks I acted crazed
Went out of my mind
Things got worse when I got sane
Going crazy numbed my brain
And made me feel fine
My sanity is unkind
This truth is pain

You'll always be the one that got away
I thought you'd be the one
Who always stayed
In my arms forever
Hold each other close together
You'll always be the one that got away

Called your place got your machine
I left a message finally
I'm sick of hang ups
It's been 12 days since the call
I haven't heard from you at all
But I'm still hung up on you
It's like the hiccups on LSD

You'll always be the one that got away
I thought you'd be the one
Who always stayed
In my arms forever
Hold each other close together
You'll always be the one that got away

I've tried so hard to forget
It isn't easy
Thought we both could use a break
But now I'm sorry

You'll always be the one that got away
I thought you'd be the one
Who always stayed
I miss your warm goodnight kiss
Loving you is proving hopeless
You'll always be the one that got away

[words & music by Sean Schuyler]